Crazy life

I hope my english get better soon. :)
Doesn't aspect anything, but i found that, i'm lost my way now.
I don't know, before i met him, i got my ownself life, my ownself target, my ownself things to do.
After i get him, everythings change.
It been 1 year long. I've been like this.
It doesn't matter what im change now, it's matter how does it change.
I'm suprisingly that, JUST i think of it.
After i been watched the movie, what name of "Eat, Pray, Love", its thoughtful story.
Who a person find her way, her stabelization, her BALANCE in her life.
Yes, he make me lose my balance of my life :)
Good stuff, yes, keep it on.

BUT, i really really don't want my life JUST LIKE THIS.
What can i change now, i change it myself.
Yes, it is, BY MY SELF.
Its words of easy but difficult when you doing this.
How do i across my line?
I've been thinking of this question such a long time ago.
I'm just nothing, im nothing, im nothing.
Im so depressed man.
I keeping suspire. I saw a sentance in a piece of chinse newspaper said:
"Some of time if you sigh is the way that you release your ownself. "
BUT, im TOO MUCH. Its too much.

First, How can i change my mind?
Who else can please physco me? Physco me hardly please..i bag you..
And one another things is, i getting fat now.
Oh gosh, help me plz, i cant imagine i can get that weight for myself.
Its such of a...

I dont want be a working machine..i dont like see those shitting faces rushing to working..
argghhh!! i'm crazy im crazy im crazy, i like to be a crazy a crazy a crazy.
I want to be change when i come bak from Korea.
I SWEAR!!!!!
My fats, my mind...allll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But i always lao gong stay with me~
:) He's my best i ever had~Love you darrl~
Who's the one always support me.
Night..hug u tightly~

Lao po~